My Issue

Everybody has issues in there life. Whether it be personal, finacial, emotional you get the idea. Well I don't know if those of you that have read my blog for awhile have ever noticed there is NO pictures of me. There is a reason. I don't want you to see me. Why? My issue is my weight. And first of all this is not an easy post for me. Let's just say I have been down about this subject for awhile. This is my way of trying to help myself do something about it. My thinking is maybe if I tell my blogger friends(which if you read this I hope I can say that)that I will get the support I so deperately need. What do I mean. Well first off, I LOVE my husband. But he does not understand my issue at all. WHen he was a senior in high school he was 160 lbs at 6 ft 4in. He was way to skinny. Now he is 220. He was sick for 2 days and lost 10lbs. He does not know what it is like to have to lose weight. In the spring/summer he looses weight. In the winter/fall he will put on weight. Not alot. After Kaylee was born he lost like 20 lbs. Not even trying mind you. Well I gained 13 lbs while I was pregnant with her. I have put on all my weight after she was born. I am not happy in my skin. I have bought maybe 2 articles of clothing in the last year for myself. I hate to go shopping for me. I try to stay away from a mirror at all cost. I do not go anywhere on my days off cause I don't want to be seen if I don't have to. My daughter is the only thing that has kept me from going into a deep depression because of it. I know this is turning into a not so good post. But I need to do this.

So today I have decided that I am so ready for a change. I need to find support. I need to explain to my husband how he HAS to help me help myself. Which I still don't know how to do that. I decided I am going to talk about the issue in my blog so I have to either read it, or talk about it to those of you that might comment on it. That way I will have the will to do something about it. So that those of you anticipating the news of how it is going I won't disappoint. My other step is to join Weight Watchers. I have been in the progam before. The very first time I lost 50 lbs. So I know it works. There is a meeting in the next town close to us.(about 8 miles away)

So I am going to make a promise to myself. But for all to see so that hopefully it will motivate me to be successful.
I promise to myelf to start my journey to lose the unhappiness from my life that is my weight problem. I want to be able to go to a store and buy clothes and not get mad and leave with nothing. I want to shed the pounds so that in a year I don't have to worry about how much more I will have to lose after the 2nd child. I want to be able to enjoy, my daughter and the next child, happily and not misirably. I want to be able to show my blogger friends pics of me and my family without feeling like a fool because of my weight. I want to look in the mirror and not be ashamed of what I look like. I want to be able to leave my house and not be ashamed of letting people see me. So today I am promising to MYSELF to start a journey to become healthy, happy and to become the person I can see in my mind who and what I want to look like.

So here is the start of a new journey. I want to thank those of you that want to come on that journey to see me through it now. It is going to be long and sometimes hard. But I know that if i find the right support I can do it right. So wish me luck and I guess stay tuned for a happier, healthier and hopefully smaller me in the months to come.

Awesome Website !

This is an awesome website. You can speak your mind and be descreet about it. That is a great thing. Everyone should check this website out.

People I dispise

These people take advantage of what most couples die to have!

Happy Birthday Bapa!

Today is my dad's birtday. He is the best dad I know. Even though growing up he might have be stern and rough around the edges. He is still a great father. Cause of that I learned to be who I am. I thank him for that. The first pic is the father/daughter dance on my wedding day, the other 2 pics are the day Kaylee was born and the weekend after she was born. They are my favorite pics. And I don't have any older pics on my computer.

HAPPY B-DAY BAPA!!!!!!!!!

Remember!

Bottles Part 2

So my reason for the bottles subject is this. When we were at the doctor for our 12 mos. check-up we talked about the bottle. First I want to tell you about a relative that has given us the will to get rid of the bottle as soon as we can. Our nephew turned 3 this last March. At Kaylee's 6mos check up the doctor told us to start transitioning her to a sippy cup. Which I guess I didn't find hard. Because her cousin (who was 3) was still sucking on a bottle. About a month ago we heard that he was supposedly off the bottle completely. Not true. A week before Kaylee's 1st b-day we found out he just got off the bottle. Kaylee has only been getting a bottle before bed since she was 6 mos old. So at our 12 mos check the doctor told me she wants the bottle gone by 15 mos.. Her doctor appt was the 31st of Aug. We are going on a week of absolutely no bottle. It has been a breeze of a transition. Don't get me wrong we still have a pacifier though. That I think is going to be a hard one to get rid of. We are trying to only use it for naps and bedtime though.

Bottles

I came across this today and couldn't believe there was such a thing. It is intresting to say the least. I personally think of laziness when I see it. What do you think?

The Big Party!

I spent 5 hours making these cakes for her party! Tiring!!!!!!







She was so into the balloons, for one they were where she couldn't get to them and they were going crazy because of the wind. Then gramma and bapa L showed up with shades for her. She kept them on the whole day. I can't get her to keep them on now to save my soul.






This is one of her gifts! The gift giver was busy the rest of the time being a chauffer!








And last but not least CAKE TIME! She knew she was a star can you tell. Even though she was a little crabby that day. But she also had her shots the day before. So I blame it on them. I tell you what I am glad this is only once a year. Mom, Dad and Kaylee were all exhausted after this. Even so it was a good day and worked out wonderfully. I still cannot believe she is One!

One Year Old

I know I am behind on my dates. But I have been so busy that it isn't even funny. Our angel turned One on Tuesday August 28th. We didn't do much on Tuesday. Cause we are having a b-day party with both sides of the family on Saturday. She turned one and now she is a walking fool. That is all she does most of the time now. We are still a drunken walker but it is so cute. I remember the day she came so vividly. It was a moment that changed our lives, and for the good. She has been a very good baby. Rarely is she crabby. Everyone always says you are so lucky to have such a happy baby. She is a precious gift from above that is for sure. So even though I am late Happy Birthday my sweet and precious Baby Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Just minutes old!!!!



Meets mommy for the first time!




Cradle Roll pics.


I will post more pics from her party after I get them.

6th's Disease

Here are some pics of what Kaylee looked like when she had 6th's Disease. It ran it's course just like the doctor said it would. The rash never bothered her either. Which is a good thing, cause it looks like it would. So we all survived 6th's Disease!

Now we need to work on some more teeth. We have 2 and have come to a hault. I know don't wish it.





Here are some pics of what Kaylee looked like when she had 6th's Disease.

childhood Illness'

Okay so why is it that every illness my daughter as gotten in her first year of life as to be viral. "There is nothing you can treat this with." I am beginning to hate that comment. Last Sunday Kaylee started running a temp.. Monday evening still running a temp. Took her to Acute care nothing was found in blood work just watch her. Tuesday seemed fine, ran a low grade temp all day but not as bad as the 2 days prior. Also very clingy not wanting to play and slept alot those 2 days. Wed. daycare called she is all blotchy on her face. I went out to look at her, NOT GOOD. All along her hair line in her ears down her neck, around her eyes. Checked her tummy(had somewhat of a tiny pinpoint red dots on tummy Monday nite, dr said it was from heat). Her tummy was covered with this pin point rash. Took her to the dr he took one look at her and knew exactly what it was. Sixth Disease is what he called it. Also know as Fifths Disease or Roseola. Here is a description of what it is:

Sixth disease: A viral disease of infants and young children with sudden onset of high fever which lasts several days and then suddenly subsides leaving in its wake a fine red rash. The causative agent is herpesvirus type 6 so the disease is known as Sixth Disease. Also known as Exanthem subitum (sudden rash), Pseudorubella, Roseola, Roseola infantilis, and Roseola infantum.

Below are some pics I found on the net. The one of the tummy is what Kaylee's tummy looked like. The one of the side of the face, Kaylee's face didn't look that severe more blotchiness than the rash. The doctor said by Sat or Sun it should be all done. I hope now that we will be one these dang viral infections become much less. I did take pics of Kaylee but don't have them downloaded yet. I hope all you mom's out there don't have to deal with this. It looks worse than it is though. The rash doensn't even bother her.So another childhood illness to record in the baby book.

big moves

So I haven't blogged in awhile. Sorry for those of you that do read this. Which I don't think is alot. Anyways. Since we went on vacation we have had big change happen. First of all I will start with my husband reacting to me working nites on weekends. The weekend after we went on vacation I worked. I worked 3 12 hr nite shifts Fri., Sat. and Sun. He got pissed and threw a fit. Which in turn pissed me off right before I went to work. So that made me even more mad, cause he made me go to work mad. Well I choose to work nites on the weekends cause of daycare. If I work nites during the week I wouldn't get to see my daughter for two days. Which I think is unfair. So on the weekends he is home and I can at least see her before I go to work and after I get home for awhile. He had a fit cause he had to stay in the house all day and all nite with his daughter. Remember his daughter. He was mad cause he couldn't go do stuff without her. To make a long story short I switched my weekends around but don't think it will stay that way.

Well in this process of him staying in the house all weekend he had to see what are house is starting to look like. We live in an old trailor house for those of you that don't know. It is starting to really show its age. So this was one of the deciding factors in my husbands big move. Which is he is taking a different job. My brother works at a body shop at a dealership and they had an opening. He told my husband about it and told him that he should apply. Well after the weekend in the house he decided to apply. This was not any easy decision for him, he has been at his current job for 13 years. It consists of his boss, him and one other guy. So he is good friends with his boss. So it was very hard for him to do this. Even though his boss has mentioned at least weekly since Kaylee has been born. That he wants to get out of the body work. He always talks about closing the shop. So my husbands job has been on edge to what his boss is and was going to do all the time. So this new job has benefits where as the old one didn't. He will get paid 2 dollars an hour more and in a year it will be 2 1/2 more. It is closer to SF. Which in turn is going to be a move to a closer town to his job. Which means a new or newer house for us.

So that is the big news in our family right now. He starts his new job next Monday so cross your fingers for him that he makes the transition smoothly.

Also another big event is in 15 days we will be the parents of a One Year Old. Lots of changes in a year. They grow up so fast. But I love to watch all the different stages and milestones. It is amazing how they catch on to things. Well hope everyone has a good week.

The past couple months.

Cool Slideshows!

We are off!

Well we are officially going on vacation as of today. We are going to the cities with two other couples that are our close friends. One couple and us are camping. That is going to be interesting. The only good thing is that the camper we are using is really nice. Better than a hotel. We will be at a twins game tonite. And depending on how hot it is tomorrow the plan was to go to a car show. But the one friend is pregant and with Kaylee will be the determining factor if the girls and maybe 2 of the kids go to that. I am sure we will take in the Mall of America too. Monday is back home. It isn't terribly long but with an 11month, 2yrs and 5yr old it will probably feel very long. Will post pics when we get home. Have a good weekend everyone and try to stay cool.

Kaylee playing with the puppy

Teeth FINALLY!!

FINALLY!!!!!! Even though most of you moms that have already experienced this will probably tell me I am crazy. Kaylee is finally getting teeth. Okay 1 tooth. I am so happy though. I know it is good the longer they are under the better the teeth but it is so hard when it comes to food. She doesn't eat baby food anymore. And finding foods that we eat that are appropriate for her is not an easy task these days. She wants everything that we are eating. And that is not always easy with no teeth. So I may be insaine for being happy but I am happy she is finally getting them. I also am glad cause I feel like she is behind when it comes to that. She is 10 months old. I know many her age and younger that have almost a mouth full of teeth. I know she really isn't behind but it just feels like it. So far we have had one bad nite and whiny crabby. I am sure I will be eating my words about this subject sooner than later.

So to the moms out there your advice with teething would be greatly appriciated.

Strange house

Isn't is amazing what some people can do! You hope they put that talent to good use.

Still Busy

So just as Kaylee was getting over her wonderful Croup. Daddy decided it would be a good time to get sick too. And I am talking on death bed sick. So sick he actually went to the doctor voluntarly. Let me tell ya people that is sick. It is like pulling teeth to get him to go and get his asthma checked on a regular basis. Also when he is sick he won't stay home from work. Okay mind you most of his illness' are cold chest type illness'. He has asthma, it was severe when he was a child, it has gotten better since he has gotten older. Okay the next thing is he works in a body shop. Paint dust all the wonderful things you shouldn't inhale especially if your sick. The first day of this misable illness this week he still went to work. I come home from work and he can't hardly hold his daugter. I told him to stay home the next day. Well he went to the doctor and believe it or not he was sick enough he stayed home. So that has been fun to deal with.

My mother in law is now home from the hospital. Which is a relief and not. I am still worried about the next few weeks to come. Her husband drives tour bus and is leaving the end of next week. So trying to find her help with dogs and house chores is the biggest worry right now. Her husband is going to be gone for a month. Her one son lives there but he drives truck so he is pretty much gone during the week. I plan on being there every day I have off, which I work 3 12hr shifts a week, so it is going to be interesting to see how the next few weeks go.

Other than that I don't know much else for now. Will probably post pics later. Hope everyone has a good weekend. Try to stay cool.